writing skills خخخ

Long nights. Death to life. Life without objective without specific goal. It's not only a life but it's also a deep valley as well as dark death.  While I remember that memorible  days. My tears are dropping. How can I overcome these difficulty and diaster? But Nothing. I'm writing the hell. What the heck I'm writing. Screw the life. I wouldn't like to  type like here. I don't wanna cry . It's like a stone in my heart in my chest. in my vascular systems. God is here . but i miss you

:'(